Random Thoughts

Hello once again. Well summer is half over and so far we've survived the heat with no air-conditioning (knock-on-wood). Having our whole house fan that Scott installed last summer has helped tremendously as well as putting up our pool to cool off in. I do think our air conditioner broke at the end of last season for a reason, as it has saved us some $$$ this year not running it. And though we are really trying to cut back on spending right now, I'm not sure on a few of these over 100 degree days I would have been stoic enough to NOT turn the air on.

Scott's still "working" on establishing his own company and I'm really rooting for him to make a go of this because it is really nice having him here with us and with his "flex" schedule. I'm hoping things pick up (they seem to be on that track-fingers crossed). Like so many around the country we've "tightened" our money belts. Lucky for us I've always been "ahem" frugal. Though I've realized recently there are even more cut backs we can and are making and am thankful that our savings and frugalness has taken us 9 months without a steady income.
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Off to another subject (hence "Random Thoughts")....

Leah will officially start Kindergarten this school year. And as many of my friends get ready to send their children off to their very FIRST day of school in a few short weeks, I realize that I won't be experiencing any of their anxiety, melancholy or trepidition that come with the VERY FIRST day of school. But with that also comes the fact that I won't have their "freedom". Time to shop without children, get chores completed without children underfoot, meet friends for coffee, or write The Great American Novel. Of course, even if I sent Leah to school, I would not have these "freedoms", as I would still have Nolan :), but I digress...For me, the trade-off of going without a few "freedoms" is well worth the cause.

For those that are not aware, we are homeschooling Leah (and eventually Nolan). This has been a thought and eventually a plan of ours since I was pregnant with Leah. All the reading, researching and planning are coming to fruition and we are finally here at the beginning of our journey. Although truthfully our journey of teaching our children began at their birth.

I am very excited (and a bit nervous) as we approach September and the start of our "semi-official" school year. I say "semi-official" because in the State of California-a child is NOT required to attend Kindergarten, which means I don't have to be accountable to anyone this school year. With that said, I am being held accountable by Leah, myself & Scott as we set our goals for the year and with that I've created my own homeschool blog to help me in my accountabilty.
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Next "Random Thought"...

I'm going to post a few pictures, but in truth, I've not taken as many photos over the last few months. Mainly because my favorite camera of choice is no longer in good working order (to my standards) and needs to be repaired; and I'm using a camera that was free to us, and in my opinion does not turn out as quality photos as I like. Hence, I take less photos :( Perhaps someday I'll be able to get my camera fixed, or purchase a new camera as I'm sure the cost will be the same. It is a 6 year old camera. Which doesn't seem that old at all, but I know that cameras have probably been upgraded since then :) Anyway-you'll find some photos from our Annual trek to the Amador County fair on the side-bar. The slideshow has photos from our 4th of July camping trip that we took with 4 other families and a Cinderella play that Mema & I took Leah and her friend Raegan to go see. Most of those photos turned out blurry though, so not any good ones of Mema & the girls :(

That is all our happening for now. We'll keep you posted on any further adeventures.

June 10, 2010

The celebration of 20 years with Eli's heart began on June 6th with my sister, my mom and me having a "girls" day of shopping, eating, talking and my "annual" transplant movie-Return to Me. We also enjoyed a bottle of Dom Perignon (thank you Ron) to kick off the celebration.

The following day continued with Lisa and the kids decorating my van and then Lisa, Scott and I heading over to Windsor with a couple stops along the way to pick up some dear friends. We stayed at WorldMark Windsor Resort which is part of Scott's folks timeshare. His folks drove all the way over there ahead of us to check us in for 2 condos and then returned home the same night! What troopers, thanks for the great place to stay Chris & Ren.

We arrived at our condo and shortly after my brother Guy arrived, followed awhile later by 2 more dear friends. Scott handed out the T-shirts he had made everyone to wear on June 8th to commemmorate the day. I also put on the ring that was made for Eli and me. We enjoyed a wonderful dinner cooked by Scott (with assistance from Guy), several bottles of wine, lively conversations, good music, friendship and laughter. Those of us preparing to ride in the Hot Air Balloon the next day attemped to catch a few Z's before our 7:30 lift-off.

We arrived at the airport by 7:15am only to be told we needed to wait and see if the incoming fog would lift. Our pilot (and owner of the company) explained to us that he should know by 8:45 if we'd be lifting off or not. So the six of us that were going up in the balloon chatted, took silly photos and prayed that the fog would lift and the wind currents would cooperate.

Heartbreaking news (for me) was delivered after the test balloon failed and our pilot told us that these were NOT safe conditions to fly in today :( He truly felt bad knowing the impact of what it meant for me to fly on this day. Unfortunately I had not even thought of a plan B, so we headed back to the condo for some breakfast and regrouping as what to do next.

After several suggestions from my brother, sister and friends; I remembered driving by the CIA the day before & checked out their website for tours, lunch etc. (By CIA-I mean the Culinary Institute of America :) ) I've always wanted to check it out-so we made reservations for 9 of us (another friend was joining us soon) for that afternoon. After my last friend arrived, we viewed the celebratory video that my aunt Joanne had lovingly put together for me. After drying our eyes we headed over to a winery for some wine tasting, and then it was off to the CIA.

The building itself was completed in 1889. It is 117,000 square feet with 22-inch thick walls of locally quarried stone. After the Great Depression, the buliding was auctioned off & purchased by the CA Wine Association who turned the buiding into a co-op for local vineyards. in 1950, Christian Brothers purchased the property. In 1990 a corporation aquired it from Christian Brothers and in 1993 the CIA was "given" the building, surrounding grounds, and 15-acre Merlot Vineyard.

We self-toured the grandiose building, sampled chocolate, browsed the gift shop and headed over for an unforgettable lunch. We dined on the patio which we had pretty much to ourselves and the staff, the food and the view was amazing. I think I might just have to take some classes here now! We celebrated the afternoon away, and then 5 from our party departed to head back home and 4 of us headed back to the condo for a wind-down evening to end the celebration. And although the balloon ride did not occur, just being with my friends and family to commemorate the day was truly memorable.

Pictures to follow...

Reflections on Eli

*******Warning******Sentimintal Post ahead**********

So I feel the need to write, mainly this is for myself, but I want to share my thoughts with family and friends too. I'll be celebrating my 20th anniversary with Eli's heart on a Hot Air Balloon ride, and promise to post photos after the event.

Though all of you know I had a heart transplant on June 8, 1990; some of you might not know that 3 years ago, when I was pregnant with Nolan, I found out my donor's name, birthdate, and that the date of the vehicle accident was not the same date I received the "call" for a new heart.

Now as the different "anniversaries" approach, for some reason I find myself thinking about his family and wondering how they are coping. I think since I've become a mother myself, I can only imagine what his family must have gone through during the 4 days following the accident. I think to myself, "It's June 3rd. Today is the day of Eli's accident. I wonder how his mom is doing?"

I know as a parent, that date would be imprinted in my memory forever. Over the course of the next few days, the heartache and revelation that their son would not survive must have been agonizing. And then to make the ultimate self-less decision to donate his organs, I cannot even fathom the anguish of such events.

I find myself wondering if Eli graduated high school yet? He would have turned 18 in September, did he graduate the weekend before his accident? June 7th was a Thursday, perhaps he was to graduate that weekend, perhaps even the date of my transplant. These are the crazy thoughts I have during this time of year and the reason I wish his family felt the need to contact me, as I feel the need to want to know about Eli.

However, I do have to say that I am VERY grateful for the information I do have. I feel very fortunate to have found out his name so I could honor him by giving Nolan his middle name (Scott wasn't keen on Eli :) ) and to know that Nolan was born 2 days before Eli's birthday seems very poignant to me for some reason.

I'll end with a poem from a dear friend that ironically I've never met (but hope to someday), but have gotten to know over the course of the past 6 years (or so). She wrote it for me 4 years ago for my 16th anniversary

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One family's loss on that tragic day

Another family waiting for word

One soul to another

Like sister and brother

Forever bound by what had occurred


A second chance, with one life to live

Who could ask for anything more?

Waiting for tests

Hoping for the best

Not knowing what might be in store


The girl grew into a woman

So many years have gone by

Passing all expectations

Getting through complications

A life changed in the blink of an eye


Along came a man named Scott

He made all her dreams come true

A love to endure

Untainted and pure

Together a future they grew


Then a new life was beginning

She would make her appearance soon

A gift from above

Proof of their love

A little girl to make her Daddy swoon


Looking back on that day 16 years ago

Who could know the gift it would bring

Sweet Leah to raise

And a husband to amaze

Things that make a heart want to sing!


A mother and father who got their wish

That their girl would get past being a teen

She inspires us all

With all things big or small


She is our very own lovely Jillybean!

How time flys....

Yikes! Has it really been over 3 months since my last update? Ok...so very short version of what's been happening since February:

March: Superb annual heart check-up for Jill, visit from Jill's sister & family before Easter. Nice visit-but too short as usual, Nolan took up skate boarding-via the Wii Fit game :)

April: Easter happenings, Leah lost her first tooth, Leah graduated from Awana's "Cubbies"

May: Jill visited with dear friend in San Diego and met her beautiful baby girl, Annual Fort Bragg abalone dive trip, Nolan moved on to the scooter :) (see side pic), Scott's 44th birthday (coming up in a couple of days), high school graduation of Scott's best friend's son next week.

Promise the next blog will be longer & will hopefully include photos from Jill's 20th Annivesary celebration on the Hot Air Balloon ride.